Hi everyone
*sigh* don't know where to start... you know my last journal? and the blood-test thing?
yeah, my doctor tried to call me (but my phone was off) so he called mum, and then she called me on my other phone.
So I answer and she sais that it's something wrong with my blood (I don't know what it's called in English, and I can't find it- anyways, we'll call it my blood-value. You're supposed to have around 100-120, 80 is, well, not good... and I had 60...) and that I need to go to the casualties, 'cause I need blood...

So, mum picked me up at dads and we went to the hospital. To make a long story short, they gave me blood under the night and I had to do two more blood-tests-so my river is now an ocean. They said I could go home today since my blood-value's higher now- and that I should come back next week and take some more tests (Since they need to know why and where my blood goes or something and if it's, er- "a leak" in my body somewhere). But then they changed their minds (no time, I think, next week), so no they told me I could be at home during the day, and sleep at the hospital, and the same thing tomorrow... and then on monday- they're going to lead a camera down my throat, to see if there's somehing wrong there...

Man I hate this!

I feel pretty good physicaly, but mentaly I'm very stressed, sad, depressed and so on. I really hate taking tests and that sort of things! I've kinda been avoding going to the doctor-I know, stupid me, but I'm scared they'll say something's wrong-I mean hey, they did. and, gwmeh.

I don't want to do this! I cry like a baby everytime they say something and I really don't want to be at the hospital alone-I know I'm not alone alone- but yeah, you get it.

It sucks, and I'd gladly take 1000 injections, if they let me go home.




Anyways, I know I'm a crybaby- but I don't care

Hope you're having a muuuuch better weekend then mine.


With love,-
Hmnia




(I did not write this to make you feel sorry for me or something- I just thought you might want to know whats happening and why I might not answer on comments/replys and notes.)